Sunday, May 16, 2010

Cool thoughts

I love the Conference issue. It always makes me think, comforts me and guides me. I love the cover this time, isn't it great!!

Anyway, this week I was reading Sis Becks talk and something jumped out at me, "A good woman must constantly resist alluring and deceptive messages from many sources telling her that she is entitled to more time away from her responsibilities and that she deserves a life of greater ease and independence." I am always trying to find a way to have more leisure. People try to tell me all the time that I need to say no to my kids more often. I thought about how when I have been out of town and serving someone, I am constantly thanking Heavenly Father for the energy and strength I have. Then I get home, and of course am tired. My gratitude stops and I want "leisure" time. So I will waste a whole afternoon watching stupid TV shows or some movie I don't really need to watch. Now I truly believe that we need rest and recreation, but "leisure"? I really thought about that. Good rest or hobbies, or recreation is fulfilling, and makes us feel buoyed up and invigorated. The scriptures talk about not being a sloth, about being diligent, not running faster than we have strength, but being diligent. I realized I have been looking at life all wrong. I always want to help my kids and I am going to turn a deaf ear to those that would make me think I should do more for myself. I am a mom, I love it, and I love helping my kids!! If I quit thinking in terms of leisure, but start thinking about being productive, I will get more done, feel better about my life, and I will quit feeling cheated. Again, I truly believe in rest, recreation and hobbies. I know I won't change over night, but I am sure going to work on it!

Today we had a RS Visiting meeting for all the sisters during RS time. It was fabulous. I was reminded of how important it is to be a visiting teacher. Quote after quote was about how being a VT was the most important calling we will ever have at church. Today I truly believed that more than I have in the past. I have always had a testimony of it, but because of coming to this ward, and because of one of the ladies I have been assigned to I really believe it in the core of my being. I want to strive to be a better VT. I made a cool little book for the sisters, I will post it later. I am tired right now.

The sheet rock work is done! Yea!!, Next is paint and tile, then cleaning!!! then the elevator. Love you all!!

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

Tired of Chaos

I was reading Megan's blog and she said it was so nice to have things be normal. I thought, maybe it is possible. I have felt total upside down for a year now. I keep wondering if life will ever be like it used to be... get up exercise, eat and read scriptures with Steve, family prayer, read my own scriptures, pick up the house, do a little laundry, then whatever for that day. It literally has been more than a year since that has happened on a consistent basis. I have wondered if it is my imagination that it ever was that way, but I know it must have been because Steve and I read the whole Book of Mormon together, and almost all of the Doctrine and Covenants. We have been in the same spot in the Doctrine and Covenants for about 6 or 8 months now. Between family stuff, moving and remodeling, life has been crazy.

Remodeling is the most chaotic crazy thing on earth. We have had a hole starting at the garage floor up to the top of our ceiling in the kitchen for about 4-5 weeks or more now. We have had no back door from the house to the garage now for two days, it will be a week by the time we get a door. We have had men running around our house for the last 5 weeks. It seems pointless to vacuum, dust or sweep. There is sawdust, sheet rock dust and etc. everywhere. I could go on, but that is enough. It is making me crazy. For the last 8 weeks I have eaten really healthy and lost all the weight I had gained over the last 8 months. Over the last 3 days I think I gained at least a few pounds of that back. I just have lost it. I did almost nothing today but eat crap to put it bluntly.

I know it will be great when it is done, its just that we started moving in the first of November and the house has been a mess since we started moving in. I am ready for some order. One thing it has done for me is that I am so ready to get rid of excess stuff! I haven't been able to back my car up and even find the stuff because there is construction stuff in the way or trucks in the way. Oh well, I know waaa, waaa, poor me. I know I have TONS to be grateful for, its just getting to me.

love you all!!!

Saturday, May 8, 2010

If Heaven was a store....

I used to always think that if Heaven was a store it would be the Container Store. The other day after working at Jakes's for 5 days, I was exhausted and decided to treat myself to a visit at Bob's Red Mill. I needed some Kamut berries. I walked in and was immediately surrounded by this feeling of warmth. I felt like I was in heaven. I walked around the store picking up the occasional cooking gadget that I didn't need but wanted. I found a cool cookbook, then went on to get my wonderful grains. All the while feeling this incredible feeling of peace. I then decided to order a wonderful sandwich from their bakery to eat on my way home. As I stood there and called Jake to tell him that I had now decided if Heaven was a store, it would be Bob's Red Mill. He laughed and said, "you're preaching to the choir mom". I have decided everyone should go there sometime. It was a wonderful moment!

Friday, May 7, 2010

Tired of being Sick!!

I am almost never sick. This dang cold is the toughest cold I have ever had. Just when I think I am getting better it gets worse again. I don't know if it's because I am doing too much or if it is just the kind of virus it is. I hate it!! I cough every time I laugh. So you know what that means, I am coughing way too much.

I was at Jake and Lyndseys packing and unpacking their old house and new house. It was hard, but all I kept thinking was how grateful I am that Heavenly Father helped me to lose my weight and that I work out. I was able to work hard and long. I literally would thank Heavenly Father several times of the day. I did their kitchen mostly and played with Miles. He is so cute. I played with Miles while Jake would sleep. He works so late and then has to get up early cause Lyndsey has to go teach school. I was glad to give him a few mornings off. Steve told Miles over the phone that he was going to take him for a ride in his boat, and boy was he one excited boy! He told Jake all about it in his little two year old voice.

I'm tired of being tired. Alright I will quit complaining.

love you all!!