Summer oh Summer where art thou?

Well, the weather here is getting downright annoying and depressing. I woke up this morning to the wind and pelting rain. for the last two days it has resembled the weather in Nov-Feb. For the second time in my life I have hated the rain. We had a summer like this when we were first married and had moved back to Oregon. I remember reassuring Steve that this wasn't normal. I wake up and if the sun is shining I wonder if I am being teased again or if this is for real. I am so ready to let go of the duldrums. Last Sunday was one of the teasers, and thankfully I went outside, laid on the beach, and sat on the deck. The next morning it was gorgeous still so I went on a walk. By noon I realized it was a fake-out! Oh well, hopefully it won't last forever. Although I have to say I do remember one year that rained all summer.

Menopause! Ugh! I am having an average of 1 hot flash an hour 24 hours a day. So on top of having my entire body have a light covering of sweat (or sometimes a heavy covering) every hour, I also get woken up all night long. Since last Saturday I have had a swollen gland in my throat and and a mild fever off and on. I have had more sickness this year than I have ever had in my life except when I was a teenager in high school. I have pondered this because I am eating better than I ever have, exercising and basically taking care of myself. I decided today that it is because I am not getting enough sleep. Since my lack of sleep is caused by menopause, I am not sure what I can do about it. For the first time in my life I am considering sleeping pills. I was saying my prayers the other day and I had a hot flash right in the middle of it and before I knew it it got so bad that I had to stop praying. It is very hard to focus, not only are you hot from head to toe, your heart is beating irregularly. Then of course there is the constant feeling of my emotions on a roller coaster. Well, anyway I know you have all heard one version or another about this I just had to complain one more time. I have thought there must be a purpose to all this sweating and crying. I decided it is to release all the toxins I have accumulated over my lifetime. Although Dairn says he wants to know what a toxin is so who knows. Well, girls and guys, this is what you get to look forward too!!!! I can see why women go on HRT, if they don't eat as healthy as I do and exercise their symtoms would be so out of control they would feel like they are going nuts. Enough of this!

Well, love you all!