Saturday, April 30, 2011

Jakes Show and other Things

Last night we went to Jake's show at the Secret Society Ballroom. It was a quaint building that used to have some kind of Secret Society in it. It was fun to see Jake and his band having a great time and playing amazingly great music. They are all very talented. It is great fun to watch Jake, I wish everyone could watch him. He is definitely in his element up on stage. He has a great time and it just makes me smile to watch him. I wish I had a camera, it would have been cool to post some pics. He had a cool wool felt hat that someone made for him. They have some new songs that I really liked and were a big hit. Can't wait for you all to hear them. They are almost done with their new album.

I told Jake that no matter how old your kids get it is a great joy to watch them do something they love to do. Steve and I were so glad we went. It was a last minute thing. We found out about it on Thursday. We both had a good time! It was fun to see the kids and Lyndsey also. We both read a lot of books and got jumped on a lot by guess who? You guessed it Miles. He is all boy. What a riot.

Aside from the wind it is really pretty outside. If we lived at Idaho Street, I would go out to my little corner on the deck that is protected from the wind and pretend I was in Hawaii and start tanning my legs. The deck here isn't the same. It's more a walk outside for a minute and come back in deck. Oh well. Hopefully in one year, 5 months and 2 days we will be signing papers and moving back. I know I am ungrateful. Oh well, I'm still mortal so still very human.

Working on a dress for myself. It is really cute, but it is like walking through very deep mud to make myself work on it. I think it is residual mental garbage from being obese. One of these days I will be past that. I was talking to Amy about it on the phone the other day. Being obese made me feel I wasn't "worthy" of beautiful fabric. So it is hard to sew for me. I go through fear and all sorts of weirdness as I sit and sew for myself. It feels like that when I think of painting by myself also. I think it is a Satan not wanting me to be happy thing. I hope as I push myself I will get passed this. I used to love sewing for myself and was as confident doing that as I was sewing for anyone else. Time.... boring. I want all the crap feelings to be gone immediately. Oh well, it will come!

I'm going to be doing my first Sharing time tomorrow, excited and a little nervous at the same time. Loving being in Primary.

Love you all!

6 comments:

AMY AND MIKEY said...

Just make yourself do the sewing. The weird feelings will ware off and you will eventually wonder when it happened. I'm so glad you both went to Jake's show! I loved watching him play, I only have a few times in my entire life, and I remember it was so fun to watch him doing his thing. Miles is so hilarious. WIsh you had your camera! When are you going to get a new one? love you!

Megan and Greg said...

I realize I've never seen you teach kids! I've seen you with teens and adults, but never children. I'm sure you'll do great. You're animated and kids like that. You sure are anxious for your old house! You guys need to make a last minute decision and head over here!!!

Grandma, Nonnie said...

I just wrote a long reply to you and the darn thing lost it. I am so mad!!! I will test it with this hugs

Grandma, Nonnie said...

I will do it over again and it had better not do it again. I am so glad you got to see Jake doing his thing again, and we will have to go again sometime. It is a fun thing. I do miss Ruby and Miles so much and love seeing them and Lyndsey also. I read a book by Ada Leshan a long time ago about being fat and losing weight. She said that she actually grieved for her fat self after she had lost the weight. Think about it you cared for her for a long time and now she is gone and you have a new self. Maybe that is why you have a hard time sewing for your new self, not that you don't deserve it, but you haven't laid her to rest. You made some lovely things for your fat self and they are still around, I have a couple of them myself. I love that beautiful red dress, you altered after you lost some of your weight. I know it may sound bizarre but think about it and it really does make sense. I love you so very much and I am so happy that you have lost your weight, now if I could only find out how to lose the rest of mine. Hugs and kisses.

Rebecca said...

Watching Jake sounds really fun. When are you going to get a new camera? You're getting one, right? I hope so. It wouldn't be the same if you didn't. I hope you finish your dress soon. It sounds hard, but I'm sure it will be worth it. That is great that you did sharing time yesterday. I'm sure it was lots of fun. Every fifth Sunday the YM and YW do music time and sharing time in primary. I haven't gotten to do sharing time, yet because we were at my dad's when the YW got to do it, but I'm sure it will. I love you so much! :)

Aliese the Writer said...

I'm sorry. I did that last comment under Mom's name. I love you! :)