Cool thoughts

I love the Conference issue. It always makes me think, comforts me and guides me. I love the cover this time, isn't it great!!

Anyway, this week I was reading Sis Becks talk and something jumped out at me, "A good woman must constantly resist alluring and deceptive messages from many sources telling her that she is entitled to more time away from her responsibilities and that she deserves a life of greater ease and independence." I am always trying to find a way to have more leisure. People try to tell me all the time that I need to say no to my kids more often. I thought about how when I have been out of town and serving someone, I am constantly thanking Heavenly Father for the energy and strength I have. Then I get home, and of course am tired. My gratitude stops and I want "leisure" time. So I will waste a whole afternoon watching stupid TV shows or some movie I don't really need to watch. Now I truly believe that we need rest and recreation, but "leisure"? I really thought about that. Good rest or hobbies, or recreation is fulfilling, and makes us feel buoyed up and invigorated. The scriptures talk about not being a sloth, about being diligent, not running faster than we have strength, but being diligent. I realized I have been looking at life all wrong. I always want to help my kids and I am going to turn a deaf ear to those that would make me think I should do more for myself. I am a mom, I love it, and I love helping my kids!! If I quit thinking in terms of leisure, but start thinking about being productive, I will get more done, feel better about my life, and I will quit feeling cheated. Again, I truly believe in rest, recreation and hobbies. I know I won't change over night, but I am sure going to work on it!

Today we had a RS Visiting meeting for all the sisters during RS time. It was fabulous. I was reminded of how important it is to be a visiting teacher. Quote after quote was about how being a VT was the most important calling we will ever have at church. Today I truly believed that more than I have in the past. I have always had a testimony of it, but because of coming to this ward, and because of one of the ladies I have been assigned to I really believe it in the core of my being. I want to strive to be a better VT. I made a cool little book for the sisters, I will post it later. I am tired right now.

The sheet rock work is done! Yea!!, Next is paint and tile, then cleaning!!! then the elevator. Love you all!!

Tired of Chaos

I was reading Megan's blog and she said it was so nice to have things be normal. I thought, maybe it is possible. I have felt total upside down for a year now. I keep wondering if life will ever be like it used to be... get up exercise, eat and read scriptures with Steve, family prayer, read my own scriptures, pick up the house, do a little laundry, then whatever for that day. It literally has been more than a year since that has happened on a consistent basis. I have wondered if it is my imagination that it ever was that way, but I know it must have been because Steve and I read the whole Book of Mormon together, and almost all of the Doctrine and Covenants. We have been in the same spot in the Doctrine and Covenants for about 6 or 8 months now. Between family stuff, moving and remodeling, life has been crazy.

Remodeling is the most chaotic crazy thing on earth. We have had a hole starting at the garage floor up to the top of our ceiling in the kitchen for about 4-5 weeks or more now. We have had no back door from the house to the garage now for two days, it will be a week by the time we get a door. We have had men running around our house for the last 5 weeks. It seems pointless to vacuum, dust or sweep. There is sawdust, sheet rock dust and etc. everywhere. I could go on, but that is enough. It is making me crazy. For the last 8 weeks I have eaten really healthy and lost all the weight I had gained over the last 8 months. Over the last 3 days I think I gained at least a few pounds of that back. I just have lost it. I did almost nothing today but eat crap to put it bluntly.

I know it will be great when it is done, its just that we started moving in the first of November and the house has been a mess since we started moving in. I am ready for some order. One thing it has done for me is that I am so ready to get rid of excess stuff! I haven't been able to back my car up and even find the stuff because there is construction stuff in the way or trucks in the way. Oh well, I know waaa, waaa, poor me. I know I have TONS to be grateful for, its just getting to me.

love you all!!!

If Heaven was a store....

I used to always think that if Heaven was a store it would be the Container Store. The other day after working at Jakes's for 5 days, I was exhausted and decided to treat myself to a visit at Bob's Red Mill. I needed some Kamut berries. I walked in and was immediately surrounded by this feeling of warmth. I felt like I was in heaven. I walked around the store picking up the occasional cooking gadget that I didn't need but wanted. I found a cool cookbook, then went on to get my wonderful grains. All the while feeling this incredible feeling of peace. I then decided to order a wonderful sandwich from their bakery to eat on my way home. As I stood there and called Jake to tell him that I had now decided if Heaven was a store, it would be Bob's Red Mill. He laughed and said, "you're preaching to the choir mom". I have decided everyone should go there sometime. It was a wonderful moment!

Tired of being Sick!!

I am almost never sick. This dang cold is the toughest cold I have ever had. Just when I think I am getting better it gets worse again. I don't know if it's because I am doing too much or if it is just the kind of virus it is. I hate it!! I cough every time I laugh. So you know what that means, I am coughing way too much.

I was at Jake and Lyndseys packing and unpacking their old house and new house. It was hard, but all I kept thinking was how grateful I am that Heavenly Father helped me to lose my weight and that I work out. I was able to work hard and long. I literally would thank Heavenly Father several times of the day. I did their kitchen mostly and played with Miles. He is so cute. I played with Miles while Jake would sleep. He works so late and then has to get up early cause Lyndsey has to go teach school. I was glad to give him a few mornings off. Steve told Miles over the phone that he was going to take him for a ride in his boat, and boy was he one excited boy! He told Jake all about it in his little two year old voice.

I'm tired of being tired. Alright I will quit complaining.

love you all!!

Ellen

Well, even though Ellen has done some things that tick me off, I still think she is one of the funniest people around and I love her show. I don't think about watching it and I am trying to not let my afternoon or life become just one TV show after the other. So I accidentally discovered something neat. The other day I sat down for a moment to take a break and Ellen was on. One of the American Idol cast offs (Tim Urban), which I liked a lot was on, but it was the very end, so I went to Ellen's website and lo and behold what was there, the clip of the day-Tim Urban! It was great. I have this yuccky cold still so am not doing much. I thought I would eat some popcorn and take a break and watch a little TV, it was in the middle of Ellen again, and remember I live on the coast, there is a storm outside and so the satellite wasn't working very good. She had this kid imitating a commercial it was so funny, so up I went to the computer and guess what the clip of the day was? You guessed it this kid. You should check it out, it was really funny. Hope all are well! I hope Rebecca posts about her good news, she got test scores back for her girls! They are amazing! Love you All!

Beam me up Scotti!

I know I have no right to feel sorry for myself, but I am having a pity party and that is just the way it is. The other day I was watching a bio of Philo Farnsworth, the creator of the TV. I came upstairs and starting talking to Steve about something I saw once on TV about how many of the things we have in the technology world were first only in the science fiction world. I want a "beam me up Scotti" machine. I want to be able to beam over to my kids, grand kids, parents, siblings, friends, and of course Costco and trader joes. I know it's silly, but I am as I said feeling sorry for myself today. I would tell a friend that we all feel that way some days and it's okay, so I guess it's okay.

So much to post

First boring, I have a cold. Not fun!

I have been reading the Book of Mormon because our Stake Pres. challenged us. I started late so am reading a lot of pages every day. I am reminded how much I love the Book of Mormon. Today the thing that hit me in a new way was how strong traditions are. The Lord excuses the Lamanites a lot because of the traditions of their fathers. Wellll, I got to thinking, what kind of traditions are we creating? If it takes something like the scriptures to break a tradition, then traditions are pretty powerful. So just like a bad one can ruin someones life, a good one could make all the difference. Just a thought!

I spent three days this week working on Jake and Lyndsey's house helping them to clean it so they can move in. Miles and I spent the whole time I was cleaning together. It was so fun, I would hear this sweet little voice say "Ama where are you?" It was so sweet. Once I had to call Steve and all I got was the answering machine. Miles LOVES Steve, so he said "Umpa, I want to talk to Umpa". So I called Steves cell phone and while Steve talked, Miles just smiled and laughed, occasionally pulling the phone away to see if he could see Steve. It was sweet. I was grateful for the energy and ability to help. I don't think I have been on my hands and knees that long in a loooonnnnngggg time. Here are some pics of their new house!I picked my first batch of lettuce yesterday! I haven't made a salad yet because I don't feel good.:-(. But maybe tonight. My carrots are up, they are tiny but you can tell they are carrots! I spent my first day at the greenhouse with people in our old house. It was strange. I had to go to the bathroom and that was uncomfortable. I told Steve that I was going to have to make a port-a-potty for my greenhouse, he said "just go at Weight Watchers before you go." I said "it's hot in there, I get thirsty!!!" Steve, "Oh." I was setting up a new watering system for the umpteenth time. It drives me crazy! I put up a sign Lizzie gave me. She gave it to me for my b-day, and we were getting ready to move. She said she could take it back, but in the back of my mind I wasn't sure if I wanted to give up my greenhouse, so I said I wanted to keep it. I am so glad I did, I love it!!! Lizzie gave me this watering can years ago, I wondered if I would use it much, and it has been worth it's weight in gold. Who would have thought!

I love that the days are longer!!!

Well, I am tired. Hope you enjoyed the pics and info, love you all!! Oh I added the annoying type in thing because I was getting anonymous comments.